here is the point where I am at
desiring God
100% I know that is what I want, an insatiable desire to know God, to love, to adore him. Since I have arrived I have seen certain people striving after God in a way so beautiful, and awe-inspiring it is just amazing. This winsome faith. I have talked about this before, but when I see a faith so awesome its shaking. I feel like my eyes are opened and I see God in a new light, illuminated by this reverence and awe for God.
“Papa God”….. say that to your self.
pray it.
I get choked up every time I think of that statement.
Awe, desire, reverence, a sincere longing, it is so beautiful. It paints this picture of us like children, sitting at his feet, unable and vulnerable. He looks down with this tender affection that lifts us up a holds us in his love. His very presence affirms us. Every weak point we have, every spot where we fall and stumble, it is another moment at which he can be glorified. God with Love that is overwhelming, so sweet.
And I want that, no, I already feel that, only a small spark. but I want it to permeate. to my very core flowing out of every pore. I am weakness. I don’t want myself, my own desires.
“bleed me out Lord, stretch me, let me yearn for you! my insatiable hunger and thirst”
Papa God, hold me
